It’s been less than a year since Lea Michele lost her boyfriend and Glee co-star Cory Monteith to a drug overdose and whilst she is obviously still grieving, she is using the loss to motivate her.
Speaking to Glamour in this month’s April issue, she opens up about her feelings after Cory died. “I immediately started to try and process everything. I didn’t drown myself in anything toxic,” she says. “At the start, it’s hard because you’re so physically and mentally shocked and damaged, but after a while you get tired of physically feeling so horrendous, so I started doing yoga, which really helped. Then gradually your mind catches up with your body. Now I feel a little bit more back together and I have this blank canvas in front of me, which is what my life can be. There’s something sad about that but also something good, because I will take that blank canvas and make something beautiful out of it.”
Although she feels his absence keenly, she’s grateful for the time they did spend together and can easily picture how their lives would have been as they had talked about it. “I feel like I was given the best part of Cory and I’m thankful for that,” she tells Glamour. “We talked about a lot of things. We talked about children and what we would look like when we grew old and who would be fat and how we would stay thin. We talked about where we wanted to go and what we wanted to do. We were done. We were it. When you’re at that place in your life with someone, you talk about everything.”
Although Lea hasn’t been single much in her life, she’s – understandably – not ready to move on from Cory just yet. However, she knows that she will be able to fall in love again eventually. “I’ve only ever had serious relationships so it’s an adjustment putting myself back into a place of being alone. And I was under a Cory Monteith spell…it’ll take time to readjust my mind and I’m really not wanting to do that right now,” she confesses. “I feel like it’s so important to make sure that I’m 100% OK before I can get into a relationship. But people have to understand that I can’t be alone forever. Cory wouldn’t want that.”
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Posted by Claire Sharp.